Fake it until you make it

So for a while now I have been working under the ‘fake it until you make it’ quote. So far while doing this I have achieved quite a bit. But ... now I am left wondering if I have still just been faking it all along???? As you know I’m training for my first marathon and I know you can’t fake those in any way. You can fake any of the training for it either. So while I had been doing reasonably well with my training up until a few weeks ago I’m struggling now. And I’m not even into the hard stuff yet. My body just doesn’t want to co operate with runs. My legs drag me down, I have walked so much more than I should have. I’ve injured myself along the way. Am I just trying to fake that I can achieve this a little too much?? My mind keeps throwing little thoughts all over the place and I really am questioning if can do this ...

The snag in the road

So I headed on out for my 2hr 15min run on Saturday. I was feeling pretty determined and I felt pretty good other than a little pain under my left heel. I got to the 15k mark where I had had to stop and walk for a little the week before and thought m, hey I have got this, I can just keep on going. For the next 3km I just kept on telling myself I could do it. By 18k my foot was hurting. I stopped and walked two lampposts and then set about running again. That’s if you could even really call in a run. It was more of a hobble. I completed my time I had set myself and also covered 20km but I still couldn’t figure out why my foot hurt. Well by the early hours of Sunday more I was struggling to put pressure on it when I got out of bed. I was guttered and just kept on thinking I can’t get an injure. Since then I have been doing plenty of rolling, lots of massage, arnica and essential oils to try and help. This morning I plodded in my little walk to work, still feeling the pain. It is easing but certainly not right. I will keep on with what I am doing but keep arguing with myself in my head as to how long to wait until I run again. I’m not missing this weekends long run!! You know this is just a snag in my journey to Rotorua but I’m not at all happy about it!